I'm still here

I've been reading blogs (although not commenting much) but just haven't had the time nor inclination to write on my own blog.  I feel like it's a little bit of moving away from this community - which may be appropriate at this point.  I hardly feel infertile anymore, although I obviously needed lots of help to get pregnant this second time (sister donor egg, as you may recall.)

Nevertheless, I love when I get to read even few-and-far-between posts from my favorite bloggers with updates on their lives (whether that's continuing the infertility march, being pregnant or dealing with baby/toddler).

So, I'm 29 weeks (I think, I've kind of lost track and my newsletter things seem confused between 29 and 30 weeks...I could sit down and figure it out but am not that interested really...jeez, how I've become quite lackadaisical about this whole thing!)

My c-section is scheduled for April 3.  They called the day after New Year's to give me instructions on when to show up at the hospital, etc.  I had to write it down because, I mean, it was still 3 months away!  I might forget!

Baby boy kicks like a pro-soccer player, although he's mellowed out a bit the last few days.  Not sure if that's because he's starting to run out of room or not.  I have a next ultrasound on Jan. 31.  The last time I went in for a scan - just before Christmas - they told me I didn't need to come again for 8 weeks.  I had been used to going every 4 weeks (last pregnancy and this) so I made the appt for 6 weeks - not quite ready to relinquish the advantages of being elderly multigravida.

I guess the other news is that we told my parents and Mr.Right's mom over Christmas about the egg for this baby coming from my sister.  No drama and, frankly, I think everybody's kind of forgotten already all about it.  My mom said some very nice things, my mother-in-law was very appreciative of my sister's generosity and my dad, who is normally not very openly emotional, but I know from my mom often worries himself awake at night about things behind the scenes, did worry a bit out loud about how my nephews might view the baby when they - eventually, some day - find out that he's sort of their genetic half-brother, but I haven't had any reports from my mom that my dad has worried much more than that.  Again, I forget half the time that this baby was made with my sister's egg and I think everyone else does too.  And that's a good thing, I think.

Otherwise, just kind of tired.  But I'm carrying a bit more weight than last pregnancy at this point.  And it's winter so I'm less consistent about getting out for my daily (ha!) 3 mile walk.  And, I'm freaking 42 and a half, so give me a break! :-)  And, oh yes, babygirl E (I mean, toddlergirl), is quite active - almost running now - and taking only a ~2 hour nap in the afternoon (albeit sleeping 12-13 hours/night).  So, I guess I have a few things to be tired about.

Just starting to get the baby's room together.  Yesterday while my parents were here (on the way to Florida for a month), they helped me move E into another bedroom so I can put the baby in her old room.  It had to do with paint colors (and not wanting to paint again), but it's basically the mirror image of her old room (the 2 are connected with a Jack-and-Jill bathroom) so pretty much everything is in the same spot for her as the old room.  She seemed to do just fine with it, and she'll have 2+ months to get used to it before the next shock - the baby arriving.

We've got a name, but while my husband wanted to start using it out loud between us, I find I just can't do it yet.  Still a little bit of the lingering infertility/loss trauma I think.  I'm just a little reluctant to get too attached to this baby (although I am attached, of course) until he arrives alive.

Well, that's it for now!  I will try to update sooner next time and certainly when the baby arrives!!