We have a lot to be grateful for 365 days after utter devastation. I'm 30w4d pregnant with a genetically normal baby girl who is measuring right on track for growth. I appear to be a long way from seeing this kid as my cervix is long and very closed and I've not had a whiff of contractions. Plus, my sister is, as of this morning, launched on a stim/retrieval cycle from which she will donate her eggs to us for our future use. How blessed we are.
I teared up a few days ago thinking about where we were last year on this date - having my NT scan which led to having a D&C a year ago tomorrow.
Interestingly, it was just as annoyingly hot last year these days too. How do I remember this? Because 2 days after my D&C we hosted a bbq for my sister and family (including my 2 nephews), Mr.Right's sister and her boys, Mr.Right's best man and family (including two of our flower girls) and one of my bridesmaids and her family (including our 3rd flower girl). Yes, 7 kids running around my house (ok, 2 weren't walking yet) and it was 104 degrees outside. And, the only people who knew about our news was my sister and BIL. It was so hot, we grilled the hot dogs and sausages outside and spent the rest of the afternoon/evening inside.
It was the best of times (our 4 nephews getting to play altogether and our favorite little girls too!) and the worst of times (trying to hold all the hurt and anger and disappointment in about our lost baby.)
Anyhow, I'm so glad to be in a *very* different place this year. It's such a cliche to look at all we went through to get here and say, 'well, it's made us appreciate it more' but, I think it has - at least in some ways. I wouldn't wish on us to have had to go through all that, but it is what it is and I have a different appreciation for being this pregnant than I think I might have had had it been easy. I'm not sure what that gets us - hopefully not becoming helicopter parents because of the preciousness of this baby - but it's worth observing.
I wish the blessing of better days on anyone out there who's still in a similar place to where we were at this time last year.
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6 years ago
cheers to one year of reflection. I am continually grateful for each and every day I am pregnant, as I am sure you are. Congrats on baby girl and 30 weeks!
ReplyDeleteWhat a difference! I'm so glad things are going so well.
ReplyDeleteI remember that time one year ago - just awful, there's no other way to describe it. I'm so happy for you that you are in a completely different space this year. We are who we are because of our experiences, and although I wouldn't want to go through it all again, I don't regret living the life I have lived.
ReplyDeleteIt IS worth observing. And I'm glad that you (and I) are in such a different place today. Very glad.
ReplyDeleteWow, I'm so glad for you. A lot has changed! For me, last year, we were in between frozen cycles via embryo adoption. Now, I think, dare I say it, we are done. Even though we weren't successful, I am glad we did everything we could. Take good care!!! thinking of you,
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