All is well

Just a brief post to say that all went extremely well with my D&C last night. Well, as well as it can go when you're losing the only baby that's made it this far with me. I was in recovery by 6 p.m. last night and home eating a Baja Fresh cheese quesadilla (probably not exactly the non-greasy food they recommended) by 8:30/9 p.m. Mr. Right and I sat at the kitchen table and talked for a long time (probably too long, since we didn't get to bed until 11). This morning was rush, rush, rush around to get ready for all of our visitors. My sister drove over really early to hang with me for the morning (and vacuum my basement and guest bedroom). It was so great to just sit and talk with her. Then, my MIL, SIL and nephew #1 arrived around 11:30 and then SIL's in-laws with newphew #2 about a half hour later. We all (all 6 adults and 2 kids) sat down for lunch together.

Anyhow, no pain whatsoever after I returned home last night from the hospital. Just a little gassy/bloaty feeling in my lower abdomen. All bleeding stopped overnight so much so that after I showered this morning I actually forgot to put even a panty liner in and there was absolutely nothing. For about 10 minutes this morning I felt a slight cramp - the mildest of menstrual cramps - in my lower back but nothing to take anything for or even to stop me.

I know I'll crash after this weekend filled with visitors, but for now, it's ok. I really appreciate all of the comments on my post of yesterday. I have to admit some of the comments about my attitude and strength kind of pumped me up. Although, I'm not really sure I'm all that strong. I know there will be some dark days ahead. And I won't be feeling all that strong. I had to tell my mom tonight about losing the baby. It was the first time they'd been able to call this week being on an island in the middle of a lake in remote north Maine (at friends' house). I guess it was easier because it was all over. It was a little hard, but my mom took it in stride and said 'on to the next' which I really appreciated. I guess we're just 'movers on' :-) Although that certainly doesn't mean we won't fret about the future (as I was doing at 4:30 a.m. this morning). Fretting about how old I'm going to be by the time we finally get pregnant again (although I'm increasingly using the "when" not "if" words so I guess that's a good thing.)

Anyhow, this was supposed to be a brief update, but I just wanted to let you all know I'm fine and say, once again, how absolutely incredible and buoying it was to have so many of you send your thoughts and prayers yesterday. I can probably never express my thanks enough to all of you.