....until we see our little bean again (ok, so it's supposed to be the size of a peach sometime this week). Even though everything is going fine, I think at least once every day about whether there's still something growing with a heartbeat in there. How the heck would I know from out here? The belly pooch comes and goes, the nipple sensitivity seems to be wearing off and yes, I get tired in the later afternoons, but maybe I'm just lazy??
On the other hand, no cramping, bleeding or anything so maybe everything is alright? I don't know - maybe others who have had a losses at this point in a pregnancy had no signs either.
Then there's the uncertainty about what the blood test results (taken last week) and the NT scan tomorrow afternoon will reveal. The greatest would be if the blood test and scan totally lower my age-related risk for having a child with down's or trisomy 13. I have a feeling, though, that the results will be more ambiguous than that and we'll be left with deciding whether to do the amnio or not --- and another couple of weeks of fretting about test results.
It's not so bad (the fretting, that is) that it's keeping me up at night or anything, but I think about it. On my run in the morning. In the shower. In the car going to the grocery store.
Then there's the issue of a broader reveal to friends. The plan was after this Wednesday's test to start to tell people beyond our immediate family. We're having friends for a bbq on Saturday afternoon and I have been looking forward to telling them. But if the results are such that we might have a problem? I don't know. I don't know if I'll want to tell them. Just to have to tell them later that there was a problem.
Trying to stay positive, but there's a lot to worry about. Distractions abound though: MIL, SIL and nephews (2 of our 4 nephews) coming on Thursday through Sunday. New house more unpacked, but not totally. Grocery shopping to do. Hopefully today and tomorrow morning will go fast.
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The worry is hard. I tend to lean towards the worry type anyway. When you want something bad enough and then when you get it and love it more than anything. You can't help it.
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You have been really good about not worrying too much. i think a certain level is normal and I just thought to myelf recently how most of your posts do not include the word worry - so I think your doing Great, especially considering the IF history!
ReplyDeleteThere probabaly is never a perfect time to reveal, but I understand wanting to wait til after the test results. just remember those numbers are scewed based on our age alone....so don't let that cause you too much worry.
Good luck with the test results and whatever you decide on telling others! xoxoxox
Oh the worry! Sure I know that well! But at this stage there is nothing that indicates that things may be wrong and in just two days time you'll know for sure. I have a good feeling about the NT blood and scan, we'll see who's right! :o) I've everything crossed for you and look, a part from the tiredness in the afternoon I have no symptoms either (maybe bigger boobs, that's all), so you better have good news or I'll freak out! Love, Fran
ReplyDeleteIt is totally normal to be so nervous and worry about when to tell people. I think you will a lot more info after the NT scan. Keep us posted.
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