No, we're not that couple who get pregnant on their own the month before their last (well, I am saying last right now at least) IVF round with her own eggs. BFN to that!! Well, yes, of course. What else would it have been? We actually tried the 'old-fashioned' way (and I mean really old-fashioned, no temp charting, no OPKing even) and what were our odds? Less than 5%? I don't know. Whatever they were, they sucked (and do continue to suck).
But, at any rate, no positive sign on the stick yesterday morning. Still going for a beta tomorrow morning. My deal with Mr.Right meant that after the negative HPT yesterday morning I would allow myself to drink wine last night as we had a house full of company for dinner and overnight (and delicious caffeinated coffee this morning!). Why torture myself any longer? I didn't even bother to test with the second stick today. What's the point? I still stuffed the old prometrium up the wahoo last night and this morning, though, and will do so until I hear back about the beta tomorrow.
Of course, most disappointingly, there's this evil little voice inside me saying, "it might still be positive tomorrow, you know." Evil little bit of hope. Sigh.
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That tiny bit of hope never goes away does it?! Because really crazier things have happened. I think I even convinced myself once, after getting my period, that it was just days of spotting and I could still be pregnant...sick mind of mine!
ReplyDeleteGlad you got to enjoy some wine and caffeine! Good on you....someone it lessens the sting of yet another negative test.
The blessing and the curse that little bit of hope left in us. I am hoping for a surprise beta for you (you soooo deserve that). I will be thinking of you tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteThis last cycle I said screw it and drank several glasses of wine during the 2ww. The first time in 22 months and the cycle worked. I'm really hoping one little glass of wine won't hurt. It seems to work for the fertiles. I hope you get a surprise positive beta tomorrow and can avoid the whole IVF!!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry sweetie, but I'm really optimistic for your cycle, so onwards and upwards!
ReplyDeleteThat's the worst part of all this...that little niggling bit of hope we love to hold onto. Urrrgghhh! I'm sorry I really wish you had been the exception to the rule! But I'm glad to hear you enjoyed your evening last night and had a little wine. All my best to you!
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