All is good so far

Last ultrasound at my clinic today revealed a growing baby measuring 10 weeks (I'm technically 9w4d). Heartbeat 165. Arms waving around like crazy.

Now we wait. (When don't we wait? Ugh.) Two weeks and 1 day until the CVS test and then the days until we get the results (presumably preliminary results in 2-3 days and full results in 10-14 days).

I so, so, so want to be happy and excited about this pregnancy. But I just can't bring myself to it yet. Not until we get the CVS results. What should have been a happy afternoon after the ultrasound was just crappy. I came home and stress ate. It was rainy and I didn't go run. And just ended up sitting on the couch watching tivo'd Masterpiece shows. Finally, a minor meltdown when Mr.Right came home tonight. Ugh.

Last time I was pregnant we told my parents and Mr.Right's mom at 10 weeks. My parents (as well as my aunt and uncle) will be here Monday (on their way to fly to St. Thomas...nice). But we won't be telling them. We won't be telling anybody (well, my sister and BIL know since we had to tell them) until we get the full CVS results back. (I'm really tempted not to tell anybody until the baby is born, but I guess people will probably figure it out before then.)

In good news, I get to stop the Prometrium. Yay! Looking forward to foregoing the pantiliners (again.) Still taking the Folgard and Lovenox though. Lovenox until 14 weeks unless I can convince my OB (whom we're seeing on Tuesday morning) or the MFM with whom I'm having the CVS to let me stop it earlier.

Tomorrow is our meeting with the social worker (whom I've been seeing for nearly a year) and my sister and BIL. Then my sister just needs to get her infectious disease bloodwork done (and Fragile X testing) and she'll start birth control pills sometime mid-March. We've decided to freeze embryos (if, hopefully, we get any) out of a stimulation cycle with my sister that should take place sometime mid to late April.

It was kind of weird to be 'kicked out' of the fertility clinic today for my own pregnancy. But yet be talking to Dr.Dry about my sister's cycle in March/April. I won't necessarily be in the office again myself (my sister is going for monitoring at another office of my clinic and I may go with her sometimes) so I sort of said goodbye to a couple of people. Of course, I've done that before too. And ended up right back there again.

So, there's a kind of rambling update for both me and my sister. Hopefully I'll be able to get myself back on the hopeful train tomorrow and be a little bit more positive. I think getting this next step of the counseling session with Mr.Right, my sister and BIL will make me feel better.

Being omniscient so I could know that this baby growing inside me was free of any chromosome abnormalities would make me feel even better. But, instead, I wait.