"doubling....or close enough"

Just got the call with my beta. Of course, up until about 10 minutes ago I was starting to freak out that it was getting late in the day and what did that mean? Did it mean it was a questionable number so the nurse had to wait to consult with the Dr. before calling me back?

Anyhow, the number is 1,373 which she said is "doubling.....or close enough to it that it's not a big deal." Of course, my immediate reaction is: but I wanted to be an overachiever! I want "more than doubling!" And I don't want any deal!

Ok, I'm going to be positive about this. Because, really, what other choice do I have? There's absolutely nothing we can do about it if it's starting to go south, so I might as well just chill and try to ride this thing out until the OB ultrasound which has been scheduled for Monday, June 7.

I'm hoping being on vacation starting Friday through next week will keep my mind off things. We'll be away from home; away from the clinic - out of sight, out of mind, right?

The only unfortunate thing is that the OB ultrasounds are scheduled for later in the morning than monitoring ultrasounds at our clinic so Mr.Right may be unable to attend. That will be his first day back in the office and patients will be stacked up waiting for him. Bummer. He's going to see what he can do, but I know he's going to be reluctant to make his partners suffer another morning of him being gone and I don't blame him. Hopefully there will be a second ultrasound later that week (I didn't ask about when the next one would be.)

Still trying to have faith that this will work out.

Thanks for all the lovely and positive comments from everybody! It's been really very much appreciated. I know, for me, there was always a little tinge of the bittersweet when I commented with my congratulations on someone else's BFP without having my own. Not that it wasn't heartfelt, but a little hard nevertheless.