Intestinal Deception

The unrequited quest for pregnancy symptoms continues. And now the very spicy crispy catfish I had at a Thai restaurant last night is messing with my mind. I started out on what I thought would be a very pleasant hour-long run this morning only to get hit with lower abdomen twinges and some serious lower back cramps for a short period of time. I suspected they were mainly digestive system-based, but of course, even as I was telling myself this after they subsided a bit, this little voice in me kept saying, "but maybe it's the end," or worse, "but maybe it's a pregnancy symptom!" Gah!!

I'm determined not to POAS. Don't even have a stick in the house. On the other hand, I guess given that my parents will likely be here when I get the call on Friday afternoon, maybe it would be good to have gotten some idea of what's coming. The downside is getting all excited if it's a positive on the HPT, but turns out to be a low HCG level (which, last time meant a non-viable pregnancy (initially thought to be ectopic, but ultimately not)). I know what Mr.Right will say: don't test. And, as long as I stay away from the drugstore and anywhere else that sells HPTs, I won't be testing.

I'm trying to stay positive although realistic this cycle and with lots of distractions this 2ww has seemed easier than some others in the past - until today. I hope I can pull through the next 48 hours. There's a lot to do, but this afternoon I only feel like sitting on the couch and watching tv.