Last shot!

Yes, after 16 days of stim shots, we've finally triggered. Retrieval is scheduled for 10:15 a.m. on Sunday. As of yesterday morning, we're measuring 2 at 20mm or above, one at 16mm and several smaller ones behind (of which maybe one of those was 10mm).

So, we're going for it. We'll see if we get any eggs, if any of them fertilize (we'll probably do ICSI like last time since there are so few (I still wonder whether we shouldn't get a discount on ICSI for so little work to be done? ;-) ), and see if any of them make it to a Day 3 transfer. We probably won't be biopsying for PGD with this few. We've talked about it and we're ok with that. Worst-case scenario? We get a BFP and have to sweat it out for 9 weeks until a CVS test (if we don't do PGD we're fer-damn-sure not waiting until another NT test - we'll take our risks with the CVS. It will save us 3 weeks and I, for one, can never sit through an NT scan again.)

It's been an ok couple of days. I think I had actually already got out my grieving for this cycle (that it wasn't perfect; that it won't get us enough eggs to do PGD) last week. Things are going pretty well with Mr.Right. I'm still having to stop myself from talking about it all every now and then when I catch myself spiraling into negative comments. But, surprisingly, this leaves room for the odd 'positive' comment to come out now and then. :-)

The one upsetting thing was that this all seriously disrupted our Thanksgiving. We knew from Tuesday that we would have to go in for a monitoring appointment on Thursday morning, but not until we'd driven ~ 3.5/4 hours to my parents did we find out in during the afternoon results call that they wanted to see us for monitoring again yesterday morning. Of course, we knew this was a possibility, but we really thought we'd trigger on Thursday night. So, we got back in the car at about 7 p.m. after T-day dinner and headed home. We get to see my parents a lot (they're here every month, at least, at our house or my sister's house) and we get to see my sister and her family a lot (they live about an hour away.) But, still. I wanted to spend my Thanksgiving at our childhood home from Wednesday night through Sunday hanging out with my family and especially my nephews and watching our puppy, Jessie, play with her cousin (a 2 year old black lab.) Just one more thing infertility and this craziness that is ART has stolen from me.

But, here we are anyhow. We actually got a lot done around the house yesterday since we were home. And we have 4 yards of mulch to spread today and tomorrow (well, maybe not tomorrow since we have to be at clinic by 8:45 a.m. for retrieval).

Thanks again to all of you who commented on my last post. I'm not sure what I'd do without the support you all have given me. Seriously. The encouragement I've received here is just not replaceable.

So, here's to our last shot. Hoping it works.