Deja vu all over again

Well, we got 4 eggs again (the only other cycle when we've made it to retrieval, we got four as well). Which is actually pretty good given that we had 2 follicles at 20mm+ on trigger day with one at 16mm and another at 10mm. So, I predict it will be deja vu all over again with 3 mature and 1 immature. (At least I hope we get that many mature ones.) Last time, 2 fertilized (with ICSI). We'll see if any fertilize this time around (ICSI and AH again). I am a little worried about those two big ones - were they too mature???

It's totally out of our hands now - and even, out of my ovaries' hands (if they had hands....err....whatever.) So, here we sit. Busy days the next two: my mother is coming tomorrow for an overnight (and then on to my sister's to help her out with my nephews while my BIL is away on a work trip this week) and I pick my MIL up from the airport on Tuesday afternoon (she'll stay overnight before she drives home.)

A little dustup with Mr.Right on the way home from the retrieval today about asking my MIL to hang around through Wednesday in the event we actually have anything to transfer (Wed. would be day 3 transfer). I had completely forgotten about the whole bedrest thing after transfer. My feeling is: bedrest? really? There's no bedrest after an IUI and none after sex. It's like the security procedures at the airport: security theater, i.e. a show they put on to make you feel better (but not actually do anything remotely effective about) your security. BabyDoc (who did my transfer last time) basically admitted as much while I was lying on the transfer table during my last transfer. There is no evidence that bedrest after transfer has any effect on the outcome of the transfer (i.e., implantation and pregnancy.) But, well, it's the last shot with my own eggs and I guess I'll do this just to rule it out as the cause of a BFN. Sigh.

What do I need someone tending to me on bedrest for anyhow? Last time, I ensconced myself on the basement couch in front of Tivo with books, mags and laptop and did just fine. But I forgot that the puppy needs to be taken out this time around (we don't have a fenced-in yard where we can just send her out.) So, ok, someone has to be here (Mr.Right has to get back to the office Wed. and has his free clinic volunteering gig Wed night. He's offered to come home Wed. afternoon and tell the clinic he can come in Wed night but I don't want him to have to do this.)

So, back to the debate about my MIL staying on. My thought is: if I don't tell my mother (who will be on the other side of the city - about an hour's drive away) about this she might feel kind of hurt that I didn't ask her to come over and stay with me. But, then, the point is that she's going to help my sister out. And, after all, my MIL will be here already. On the other hand, while I really do love my MIL, it's not like having my mom here. I feel like I'll have to entertain her, although I absolutely know she won't demand to be entertained. But I just feel like I will need/want to. Ugh.

Ok, in the grand scheme of things this is the least of my worries. Mr.Right and I did agree not to pull the trigger on telling either my MIL or mother until tomorrow after we receive report about whether any of the eggs even fertilized. Trying to not get ahead of myself here. One day at a time (thanks cgd for that reminder!)

Otherwise, things went exceedingly well. We're practically best buds with the nurse anesthetist now, having just seen him 2.5 weeks ago for the cyst aspiration. I could practically recite the nurses' spiels as well. And not a single post-procedure extra tylenol for me (and certainly no Vicodin - I didn't even take the scrip). Is it just because I have so few eggs to retrieve that I never feel any pain after retrieval? Maybe those who have 18+ eggs to retrieve are in there longer and have more pain....hey! there's a positive thing about being a poor responder! ;-)

Anyhow, after running home to let the puppy out, we headed to the diner for a lunchtime breakfast (I was starvin' marvin' after not having had any breakfast). And then on to Home Depot and Costco for a few things. A nice long walk with the puppy at dusk this evening and now getting to catch up on all of your blogs. Hope our embryos (please, let there be embryos!!) are tucked in for the night. Grow, babies, grow!!