Yes, because nothing ever works out for us and we never get a break, of course I have a cyst. It's CD2 and just back from bloodwork and ultrasound. Now we'll delay starting stims until I go back Sunday morning for yet another bloodwork and ultrasound to see if cyst is getting smaller. Estrogen levels won't tell us much since I still have the last Vivelle estrogen patch on. If the cyst is getting smaller on Sunday, we'll proceed ---- I guess. It just sucks. We never ever ever get good news. And I'm sick of it. I'm fucking sick of it!! I just want this to stop. I want to stop getting disappointed over and over again.
I want to stop making Mr.Right sad because I can't be even one shred of optimistic walking out of appointments like that. We stood out on the sidewalk outside the building and I cried. I know, I know. It's just one stupid cyst. It isn't that big of a deal. We'll either bag this cycle and wait til the next or do an IUI and play Russian roulette again with my crappy, crappy eggs.
And I'm sure moving on to donor eggs will bring yet more disappointments. Some I just can't take it anymore.
Eating frozen chocolate chip cookies and drinking another cup of decaf coffee and it's only 8:58 a.m. sigh.....
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6 years ago
Oh, GROAN! Being benched for a cyst was the lowest point in my own journey. I think it's hard for people unfamiliar with IF to grasp how maddening a set-back that is. My heart is with you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry this is hard. I desperately wish you a break already.
ReplyDeleteNo. This does totally suck and crying is the old way to deal sometimes. Delays are a pain in the ass.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry!!!
You have got to be kidding me!!!! I am so so sorry that you are dealing with this. I really wish for a part of this to just go smoothly for you. You deserve so much more than this. I hope you get the green light soon. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteUgh! I'm so sorry. Lots of hugs to you!
ReplyDelete~ICLW
Oh man!!! I hated having to sit out due to a freakin' cyst. Seriously, what is the point of those. argh..
ReplyDeleteI hope you get some good news, it seems you're overdue!
I'll send some positive vibes your way... SHRINK CYST, SHRINK!!!!
http://www.becauseofmatch.com/lesspublic
I'm so sorry. I remember the frustration of being all ready to go and then suddenly being told I couldn't start because of a cyst. It feels like such a kick in the teeth after you've suffered so many blows already and then geared yourself up for a cycle. I really hope it's shrunk to a proceedable level by tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, I know how dissappointing this can be. Sigh. Woulsnt it be nice if everything just went smoothly and perfectly?! I guess we wouldnt know what to do if that happened. Praying for that cyst to shrink and hoping its smooth sailing from there. xoxoxox
ReplyDeletePetal, I know it's disappointing, but it's not the end of the game yet!! Today you are checking it again and it may well be smaller. Try not to focus on the possibility of an even darker future (there's absolutely no reason why DE should be a disappointment!) and I'm very hopeful you will be pregnant. Love, Fran
ReplyDeleteim so sorry for your loss of your first BFP. i can imagine that's been heartbreaking, and just live changing. but i like your zest. don't give up!!! best of luck w/ your cycle and ugh to the cyst! that's happened to me before and its very frustrating. happy iclw (#31)
ReplyDeleteI was also a TERRIBLE responder. I don't see many of those around... if you need any support please feel free to contact me. I never had more than 7 follicles total. I had 4 total IVF cycles but probably at least 8 canceled for various reasons.. including cysts. It was very frustrating... my doctor always told me, you only need 1 good egg ;-)
ReplyDeleteI do so hope this cycle works out for you and that the dumb cyst gets smaller. Enough already! Cysts are silly; there isn't even a real vowel in the word. I mean, really. Sending you hugs and hoping for good things.
ReplyDeleteTake care,
lady pumpkin
ICLW #23
Crap - I'm so very sorry! I hope your appointment goes well today and that stupid cyst has shrunk!
ReplyDeleteStopping by from ICLW. Sorry to hear you are delayed by a cyst. I can certainly relate. It's hard to be optimistic about ANYTHING when you're running out of time and your body won't cooperate!
ReplyDeleteSorry this cyst is holding things up for you! Hopefully you can get rid of it soon so you can stim soon! I just added your link! (ICW #72 & 106)
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear that you've run into a roadblock...it can be agonizing! It is very hard to remember (at least it is for me)---but the worst thing doesn't happen all of the time. So hopefully you will catch a break soon! I was a very poor responder myself, and I know how frustrating that can be. I hope that the cyst resolves soon and that things start looking brighter!
ReplyDeleteBest wishes,
Lisa Rouff, Ph.D.
www.theinfertilitytherapist.blogspot.com