To get the books down or not?

I had told myself I would only get the pregnancy books down (they're currently stuffed in a box up on a shelf in the corner of our closet) if we got a good result on the CVS test. Is it time? Should I wait for the full results next Monday or later that week? Should I wait until we get this toxo issue resolved?

I didn't need to get the books out until now since I'd read the first trimester chapters three times already. But this is the last week of my first trimester. Of course, there's probably not much in there that will be all that revelatory. But it's the thought of just being able to do what normal pregnant people do - to read the damn "What to worry about..." book each week.

On the toxo front, my OB's office appears to be MIA. I called yesterday afternoon and they were going to look for the results but told me if they didn't get back to me yesterday that meant they hadn't gotten them yet. No word yet today either. Although Mr.Right saw their office manager in his office this morning (she's a patient of his) and he actually told me this afternoon that she asked how it was going. And he actually told her about this waiting for the toxo results and our interest in having my blood sent to the reference lab in Palo Alto for further analysis. So, she said she'd talk to my OB about it when she got back to their office this morning. So, maybe we'll get a call from my OB tonight. Who knows.

Regardless, the toxo thing is probably not going to be completely resolved in the next few days.

Is there a reason I shouldn't just stick my head in the sand about this and just act like a normal pregnant person and read the books for the next few weeks? If we have to terminate at 18 weeks because the amnio shows that the baby has been infected, then, well, that will suck......big time. But is there any reason I can't just freaking enjoy a few weeks of being pregnant for once???

I really just want to be a pregnant person with no worries. Is that so much to ask for? I'm getting the damn book down.