Not sure how to break this to you.......

I broke it to Mr.Right yesterday morning (yes, that was Sunday) at ~5:30 a.m. Positive pregnancy test.

Yes, I POAS'd yesterday morning. I woke up about 5 a.m. and was just lying there thinking and thinking about the one lonely HPT I had stuffed in a drawer in the bathroom. And thinking about the timing of getting AF this week so that I could get my hysteroscopy done CD5-10 before I leave for Colorado next week. So, I got up (because I had to pee anyhow) and did it.

So, now what? In case you need a quick catch-up: we're expecting to have my sister's Day 3 testing take place this week. To verify whether she is a suitable candidate for donating her eggs to me.

Yes, Mr.Right and I (obviously!) tried this past month, but without any real knowledge of when I would ovulate (no monitoring, no OPKs, no temp'ing), just decided to BD every other day or so from ~ days 8-14. And I've been pretty much behaving as if I weren't even trying: plenty of alcohol, ran 13 miles on Saturday, etc. (I was, however, at least taking a prenatal vitamin a day, figuring it couldn't hurt.)

How was it yesterday morning? Well, there was a little bit of laughter; a little bit of disbelief; a little bit of recognized irony; a lot of realism. As Mr.Right put it, "I think we ought to assume this is an unhealthy pregnancy until proven otherwise." And I agree. This could go similarly to any of the previous 3 pregnancies: #1) chemical (pre-dating any treatments) which ended ~ 10 days after the positive pregnancy test, #2) empty sac at 6 weeks which ended with a D&C (pre-dating IUI or IVF, but helped along by a trigger shot of Ovidrel), #3) IUI-induced pregnancy that lasted almost 13 weeks until the worst NT scan in history, whereafter a D&C ended the pregnancy and revealed Trisomy 18.

And given all this, we've decided to continue forward with my sister's testing (I actually just talked to her and scheduled her bw/us for tomorrow morning.) Our thinking is this: if we lose this in the next few weeks we'll still pretty much be on schedule with regards to using my sister's eggs. At the latest, we figure, the CVS testing would take place the week of Feb. 20 probably (~ 9 weeks from LMP). If we have to abort then with a D&C it might set us back a month or maybe two until they'd let me be ready for a transfer, but at least we'd have all the testing done and be ready to go.

I did just tell my sister this morning that we got a positive pregnancy test yesterday. And she agreed we should just go forward.

And I just called my clinic to tell them about the positive. I suspect they're going to want me to come in for a beta and I'll get sucked back into the vortex of over-monitoring that is an infertility clinic's penchant. But, maybe that's good. We'll at least find out on the early end of things if it's an empty sac and has to be removed.

On the other hand, there's some small (probably very small) chance that this could all work out. I guess that's why we went ahead and tried, right? Otherwise, what was the point? And lest you think Mr.Right has totally reversed his personality and become the pessimist to my optimist, guess who already looked up the EDD? Not me! :-) But I find myself having that little tiny bit of hope somewhere in there that this just might work. Or it might not. Whatever way it works out, we know what we're doing next. One day at a time. (Easy to say, hard to do.)