Measures of Hope | 15 December 2010

+1. Beta scheduled for 8:45 a.m. tomorrow. My plans for tomorrow night (to go out to the bar with an old colleague for his going away party) are no more. I had thought about going back to the original plan to delay until Friday morning since Mr.Right has a work dinner tomorrow night and I didn't want to be alone with bad news. But, I had a talk with myself today and decided that I was simply delaying because I was afraid of the outcome. But, I'd just be afraid all day tomorrow too. So, I think this is a positive thing that I've decided to go ahead.

+2. I'm psyching myself up for a BFN with all kinds of plans. I know, this might sound pessimistic, not positive or hopeful, but these plans are largely organized around getting my body in the best-est shape ever to host a donor-egg embryo - so I'm expressing hope about that next step. I'll sign up for a March marathon. (I haven't done a marathon in 2 years!) I plan to lose 17 pounds to get to my long-term goal weight (I've only ever gotten as low as 7 pounds above that goal weight). I plan to get back to spinning 2 or 3 times a week, swimming at least twice a week and, of course, running long (I haven't run 10 miles since September or maybe even August).

+3. Finally figured out why I wasn't receiving international wire transfer for payment on one of my consulting gigs - I'd given them the wrong (an old) bank account number. They've actually been trying to transfer the money since October 18. So, I'll be getting paid soon! (at least for the first part of the project)

+4. Puppy kindergarten tonight. I can tell Jessie's excited ;-)