+1. Who knew shoveling the entire driveway would provide so much satisfaction today. Ok, it was only 2-3 inches of now and very dry and light and fluffy. But whatever. It felt good (and it hopefully worked off some of the 3 christmas cookies and half a bag of Pepperidge Farms goldfish I ate this afternoon.)
+2. A useful conversation with Dr.Dry just an hour or so ago. He called to say he was sorry about the BFN. I thought it was a nice touch. I think he really does get that we've been through a lot. We actually ended up talking in some detail about how to get the process for doing donor eggs with my sister going. He thought we would be able to skip the mock cycle and probably the mock embryo transfer since I have plenty of data that shows I routinely make a lining >8 and I just had a mock embryo transfer again at the end of August. Now, I'm prepared for the bureaucracy to kick in here and for this to get reversed, but I think he is trying to help us out here. Next step: have the sit-down conversation with my sister and brother-in-law and Mr.Right and me.
+3. An even better conversation with Mr.Right. He had called earlier in the afternoon but had to ring off abruptly (a patient was on the phone complaining of chest pain....um, ever heard of the ER?) Anyhow, we were talking again when Dr.Dry called. It was just good to be focused on what we're doing next. We're in total agreement on what we're doing. We're prepared. I can't imagine going through all of this with anybody else by my side.
+4. Mr.Right's dinner event was cancelled!!! He's picking up Thai on the way home. A bottle of Veuve is in the wine fridge waiting to be drunk with dinner. Why champagne on this day of all days? Why the hell not! If we wait for something to celebrate, we'll never get to it. (The same patient gives us a bottle of Veuve Clicquot every year for Christmas and Mr.Right brought it home from the office yesterday.)
+5. All of your comments already today. I don't know what I'd do without all of you who have been with me through this tortuous journey. An especial thanks to those who continue to remind me that just because my child might not have my genetic material, that child will be no less 'mine.' I really appreciate the perspective. It's hard to keep the end goal in sight sometimes.
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I'm so happy about #4 - I think it will be a great thing that you two can have a bottle of champagne and have some nice time together today! I love that you and Mr. Right are so on the same page with where you're going. That has to be lovely talking with him - looking forward to your new plan, and figuring out the egg donor route. This is amazing - and I'm so proud of you for this outlook!!! This measures of hope thing looks good on you...
ReplyDeleteYeah for dinner being cancelled, Thai food and champagne! It sounds like you have a great plan to move forward! I will be here cheering you on!!!
ReplyDeleteOh sweetie, I'm so sorry that this cycle was a bust :( It's such a terrible shame. But I read sprogblogger like so many others and she adores her boy - it matters not one whit whose egg he came from, he is hers through and through.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your dinner with Mr Right, drink up and love each other well.
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I am sorry about your BFN.
ReplyDeleteHowever, Veuve can be consumed anytime, frankly. Cheers to your new beginnings.
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ReplyDeleteSo sorry about your BFN after all you've been through. I wanted to tell you that I'm almost 43 and after failed IUIs and one miserable IVF we moved slowly to anonymous donor eggs. We also used donor sperm. I had a good lining too but washed up eggs. We got our BFP on our second try - with a two embro transfer of FET AND I'M BREASTFEEDING OUR TWO MONTH OLD BABY GIRL AS I WRITE. she's perfect and I love her so much - we both do. The genetic thing does sting for a while after you experience that loss feeling
but it's all fine now. . Sorry about the upper case - my I phone is goofy. Good luck on the next part of the journey!
I'm sorry that this is super hard, but you sound much better now that you have a plan in front of you and a bottle of champagne chilling. I know it's hard, but you WILL have a child and this will, one day, seem very very far away. THinking of you.
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